Let Your Name Be Lifted Higher

I'm not gonna lie, these past few weeks have been the hardest of all the 6 months we've been here. I'm tired of being alone, I'm tried of not being at home, I'm tired of only seeing my husband on weekends, I'm tired of hardly ever seeing my family... I guess we can say I am just tired of everything. I try my very best to stay positive because I know with all of my heart that things could be much worse. But what can I say... I'm human, and humans feel sorry for them selves haha! 

Its funny though, cause I can sit my room and complain and feel sorry for myself and I walk over to the hospital the whole time thinking about how life is just so hard right now and I walk into Deklyns room and I totally forget everything I had thought or said. Deklyn has made me understand how blessed I am and he has made a stronger person than I would have ever thought I could be. I have always dreamed of being a mom, I couldn't wait to have my own kids. When I found out I was pregnant, I had no idea the journey that lay ahead of me, I truly feel that this situation is bringing me to where God wants me. If everything had been fine with Deklyn I would not be who I am today. I've been totally pushed out of my comfort zone and have had no choice but to grow and become strong, otherwise I really don't know where I'd be right now. If I hadn't, I could see myself being very depressed and not caring about life. 

But back to Deklyn, and enough about me! We still don't have a new trach for Deklyn but that is supposed to be happening tomorrow so I can not wait! I've been waiting over 2 weeks to hold him, give him a bath and all that good stuff. We are believing that this new trach is going to be just what he needs and were going to start to see him improve so much more with his breathing and tolerance to movement. So other than that, nothing is really new were just still waiting! I want to thank everyone who is praying for us, and supporting us. I can't wait for the day my post title is WERE HOME!!! but until then thank you for believing with us that we will get there, and for praying us in the mean time for strength and patience. God WILL be glorified with Deklyn's life, and I am so proud to say that I get to be his mom and watch what God has planned.